giving up
After about a few months having my cactus, they were growing fine at one point. But when I transferred them to a larger pot, with a different soil, they started dying. My friend's cactus, was growing really fine and tall. I was very disappointed at my own cactus. Why still look so short? Why is it dying? I cut away the dying part.. and I transferred them back to their original pot.
Was very tempted to get rid of them, and just buy a new one.. But I kept them anyways.. Surprisingly a few weeks after that, one of my cactus started to grow again. It's quite healthy now. I can see the part that I cut away started to grow. I hope they will do fine.
I learnt something through this. I am a bad master for my plants. I wanted to give them up. It makes me realise how great my Master is. He never gives up on me. Sometimes, there are stuff that I am annoyed about myself. But I thank Him, that He never gives up on me. Although I looked bad, didn't seem to grow, dying.. not up to expectations. He still never gives up on me. Isn't He good and faithful?
Missing: My tees
Hung my favourite tees to dry because I don't want to tumble dry them. And when I came back from sch today, there were no longer there!
I hope it's becos some good-hearted people wanna help me keep it from getting drenched. My fav teessssssss
I am the seniorest senior
OK. I don't care about my English. In fact, my English standard has been deteriorating. Perhaps I've been spending quite a lot of time back home for the last summer break.. Yeah. Noticeable and uncontrollable rolling 'r's.. anyways.. I am most seniorrrrr in NUS now. HAHA
How does it feel like? Unreal. I feel like a kiddo. LOL. My mom always ask me to grow up. Haha.
Anyways, a few things to thank God for this semester. My KE7 room, my new neighbours, my modules, and that I am still alive. Thank Him that I still have my time. Cos I make so many mistakes, and still have that selfish side of me. Human. Having to see 3 people in my extended family resting in peace, this summer holiday, makes me treasure each day more.
Like what Morrie said "when you know how to die, you know how to live."
I don't think I know it all yet. Trying my best to live each day to the fullest. Well it doesn't mean I have to do many interesting stuff. Just try my best to be a good daughter, a good friend, fulfill my duties, being more sensitive to the needs of people around me, and learn to love myself and others thru the eyes of God. Still learning.. still being humbled by all my mistakes.
Anyways, for this semester, I want to do my best. Though have been really disappointed with my FYP process, after meeting my supervisor... but yeah, I'll work hard and prove to him that I will give my best. Expectations are sky high. But I will just keep walking, never give up. Reading a book now entitled "Talent is never enough" by John Maxwell. I strongly recommend this book to those who wants to unlock the potential in them, or if you are in doubt of what you can do, pick up this book too! It's found in most bookstores, not just Christian ones. So yeah, this is my target for this semester: never allow myself to slack. Good is the biggest enemy of excellent. Tho I failed at times, I will stand up and try again...
with a thankful heart
lately have been so easily distracted with small stuff that comes to steal my peace.. realise that it doesn't bring me any joy at all. it's really true, when i look into His words, so comforting, and so revealing.. just like a mirror.. now I understand that the word of God will bring us freedom to all the things that can blind us, bind us.. giving thanks is the key to joy in pain.. and the word of God realigns us into the right mindset when we face issues in life.
thank God for His faithfulness in speaking into my life. when I am blinded, He brings light into my path. I can find the way out again. thank God He never gives up on me, though sometimes I feel like giving up and frustrated with my own state. when He speaks, I know He still cares. and really cares alot.
praise Him.
