---apple addict---: April 2008

Monday, April 14, 2008

away...

There has been more struggles in my heart about being away.. more than it used to be.. Sometimes I think, why can't I just remain where my family are and just enjoy that tiny island.. having a simple contented life.. why must I be here?

People always ask me.. so you go back very often? Your home is so near. Yeah. It's near. 40mins away. But yet, I don't know why going back never seems to be a frequent thing. I thought perhaps when I am doing internship, I might have more time to visit my family back home. ermm.. nope. Not happening..

Guess it all really comes with a price (quote from a friend, thanks for reminding me chris). Even my mom, sometimes doesn't understand why I have to put in so much time in what I am doing. She often tell me, "I am sure they'll understand.. Just find a replacement". Yea yea. doesn't sound as easy. Sometimes I do get a little annoyed when my mom bring this up again. But I know she wants me to spend time back home. She has good intentions. But I dun think I should find the easy way out. I need to be more faithful (as what mn shared during cell). Staying faithful ain't easy. Our perseverance is only tested when we are stretched beyond our comfort zone.

When I am away, I really appreciate the little things that God does for me. Sitting in a bus, I was complaining in my heart once. "it's not easy to live alone here.. back there, anything wrong I can always run to my parents." But staying here, I realise often times I have to run to God. But He never fails to show up as a caring Father, who always tells me "You are precious to Me, although you might think you're just a speck."

Living here also makes me grow so much. Especially in knowing who I am and who God wants me to be. At home, I depend on my parents too much, I become quite short sighted. Here, I have time to reflect on what are the things God has been speaking to me and really finding out my destiny. Well.. some pieces of the puzzle is found, but I am looking for more, to make sure that I know where I should journey to.

So, though living away from home is not easy.. but yeah, I trust in Him that everything happens for a reason. I must thank Him. That He has given me this path of uncertainty, because only through this, I can learn to trust in Him. I thank God that I have to walk through the bumpy road, so that I know how to cling unto Him. I thank Father for many experience in the river, where I learn how to flow and let the stream carry me. Into places I've never been but full of goodness awaiting.

Hope this can be an encouragement for you, if you also feel that you life is full of uncertainty.

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

News update: my aunt

Hi all.

My mom just called. She told me that the doctors are saying that the cancer cells have not spread yet. She still has cancer, but there's still hope, the doctor said. My aunt is feeling very much better I heard. She said even without drip, she doesn't feel sick. And she still has rejoicing spirit.

I believe the prayers we offer for her is really answered by God. We will keep praying for her until no cancer cells are found in her body. Praise God!

Thanks for all who have prayed and continued to pray. :)

Monday, April 07, 2008

some things I learnt today

these are some of the things I learnt today:

I enjoy realising that I am stupid in some ways everyday. That makes me learn.

I want to make sure I don't say "let's hope to meet one day", "hope that I get this or that"
But I want to make sure that I put in effort to make it happen.