holidays is coming... well I dunno why I prefer to have shorter holidays.. But I think I must give thanks for the long holidays. Really hope that this long holiday will be a different one.. One that I will do foundational studies on my faith... not only reading up but I hope I can learn from experience too.. It is only through that I can really understand the reality of faith..
well.. I am going back on tuesday.. (I think..) requested by my mom.. I had wanted to stay longer at least until the end of this week... Jus catching up with my friends.. my old friends.. but I think have to push back all the meetings and going out with friends..
well.. looking back at this academic year.. I really feel that God is moving.. There are so many things that are revealed during this year and last year.. and I feel really excited even now when I am reflecting back on the things that God has done.. It is totally the movement of the Holy Spirit. I think without Him I couldn't have known Him more.. It is so miraculous. I think I was a stubborn Christian.. Just like what sister Margaret Seaward said.. I was holding to the old me just like she did. And I don't think that I already get rid of all the old me yet.. Being a Christian doesn't mean anything if we are not changed from day to day. It will not mean anything if the Christ that we have accepted into our lives doesn't remove our old nature.. In fact we have to be changed from glory to glory.. I finally understood about why God reveal His glory progressively. If God reveal all of His glory, we will really die.. Cos His holiness is so beyond man's comprehension. He's really the only perfect being.. and no matter how "good" is man in the eyes of man, we are still far from perfection. We measure using God's standard. Not human standard.
There was once I was stunned by one question that was raised by someone. How do we experience God? Well.. actually it is quite simple. It takes a really sincere heart of turning back to Jesus and a simple prayer. Just ask God to come into our lives and really commit everything to Him. And often people have this misconception that God is far away from the new believers. Is that true? My Jesus is not like that. I believe that my Jesus is always drawing near to whoever who is drawing hear to Him. All those who come to Him must believe that He is. Just believe in this and start an everyday walk with Him. Talk to Him inside your heart and He will guide you.
"Yah that sounds so correct but is that possible?" Yah.. If you believe. I believe that God also teach us about Him, who He is, through everyday encounters. I remember as a young Christian I often thought to myself.. will God talk to me? Will He even interact with me? Well I am really thankful that I am not discouraged when I am not getting any replies.. (Infact it was just that I wasn't sensitive enough to His voice) When I was asking myself these questions I did not just give up (thank God for that!) But I went to seek counsel of more mature Christians.. to ask them about their experience with God. Then I realised that I am not the only one.
God talks. He does through bible. (those verses that will just jump at you..) and He speaks through people. So do not be discouraged. He speaks through different ways.. Sometimes He can speak through something that happens in our lives. When a baby is born, he is under extreme good care of his parents. When the baby grows up and become a little child, he needs to be nurtured.. when he is a big kid, he still needs to be sheltered.. when he grows up he still needs his family. The same thing applies to a new believer. He has to be sheltered under the guidance of more mature Christian and need to be taught the "ABCs" of faith and maybe he cannot understand what his parents are talking about or why his parents don't allow him to do whatever he wants.. but the intentions of his parents is good. Imagine letting the child go out on his own.. He'll be lost.
I really really thank God that when He called me.. He did not give up although I tried to be smart by walking away from Him.. being too comfortable with my life by just living with my own set of rules. When I didn't even understand that the rules that I set might lead me to distruction. And when he called me back a few years back, He guided me through a series of "ABCs" of faith.. although I still think that I am very much a child now... maybe I am learning the DEF of faith now.. haha.. The road may not be easy.. The will of men is not the will of God.. but if a child is faithful to just stick with his parents, he can be rest assured that he is in good hands.. and he will ultimatedly grow to know what it is all about to live..
Hmm.. I really dunno why I am writing all these.. hope you'll be blessed.. Cos Lord Father is really an Incredible DAD! :)
i am amazed
[+-7.30pm] after critical writing paper I was waiting for bus back to hostel
[almost 8pm] in the bus.. thinking of whether I should just rest after exams and wake up at 3am to study for maths tomorrow. Asked God.. felt that I should sleep.
[8.00+pm] Thought that I should sleep. So prayed and read a little bit of scripture
[about 8.30pm] Lights off. Felt.. really felt strongly that I should not sleep. (This is rare. Cos when I wanna sleep. Nothing could stop me.) I don't really know why Holy Spirit asked me to stay awake yet. And yes. I felt like switching my computer on too..
[about 10+pm] After browsing some pages and reading e-mails.. I wanted some music.. and somehow I got lead to sermon mp3s.. yes.. I don't know why... and I know it must be God.. then I listen to this sermon.. oh powerful! It's an extension of what was shared in prayer meeting and what mn shared with me and what yw and me talk about at arts canteen yesterday.. Yes.. what I really wanna know about Him..
[till now..] still in awe of God.. Cos the message is so true so connected to yesterday's.. Power..! This is what I call God is real!
best exam week ever
I have done 3 papers.. Physics II, management, and wireless comm. And I am so happy. Not because I only have 3 more to go.. Not because I can do today's paper. But because I learnt so much of His grace and His love through this exam week..
I can still remember this morning-afternoon.. I almost got stressed out. I din know there are so many things to MEMORISE.. Ha.. Cos my one piece of A4 size paper was not enuf to fit all the things I needed.. Can u imagine it.. I had a 21 pages long notes.. (that's half summarised already..) I was thinking about how I was going to fit them all on one piece of A4 size paper.. I tried and tried.. Using single page and send to fineprint for printing 8 pages per piece. So that totals up to 16 pages per peice. 8x2=16. I needed to cut down by so many pages! I tried to make it double page before sending to fineprint.. And the words looked smaller than ants. Can't read at all.. And what goes in my mind was.. What do I do? Am I gonna fail? All the negative thoughts.
But I refused to be stressed.. I prayed to God to help me calm my mind.. Stress doesn't come from God.. So I just tried and tried and tried.. And finally I thought of something I never thought before. That is to reduce the font to 6.5 and printing it to 8 pages per piece in fineprint. And it turn out ok! Big enough just to read.. Real nice and I got more than enough space to squeeze my notes. So it totalled up to 15 pages. One more tiny unused corner for me to scribble extra notes..
I really really thank God. Not for only this but that when I studied, I kind of studied the correct things.. And almost all of the questions came out in the exams. I must really say that the glory belong to God not me.. Even in my other exams.. During the preparation I am so thankful that I am not stressed because of a bible verse that I keep in my heart. That is "do not be anxious in anything but in everything thorugh PRAYER and PETITION with THANKSGIVING PRESENT YOUR REQUEST TO GOD. And peace that transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Phil 4:6-7 It's on an arcylic key chain that I got from my friend beginning of semester 1. I am really thankful for this. It must be from God. God already know that I needed this verse to guide my walk in school. I found a key to peace! This is really WORD OF TRUTH and WORD OF GOD THAT IS LIVING! Praises to Jesus my wonderful help in times of need. :)
after one paper..
This morning I had my first paper in sem II. It was engineering physics II. This is not an easy module.. I never imagined physics to be so hard. I mean.. this is only level one module.. I really can't imagine what higher levels of physics will be like.. I heard from my physics tutor that the quantum topics we're touching is just the second level of quantum mechanics. Looking back at JC level of quantum topics.. I really think that it was so simplistic.
I never knew that at microscopic levels, physics law changes.. And I am not too sure whether scientists are really right.. Cos I have not done many labs on quantum.. Only a small experiment on emission/absorbtion spectrum. Quite interesting.. The lab TA said that we could use this experiment to find out the composition of stars.. I should not bore whoever who are reading this with details..
Anyways.. I hope I can finally get over with physics II. I really really love studying it. But there are too many things covered and to master them in one semester is just not enough for me.. If only there are more labs to do.. then it will be more interesting..
Yesterday when I was studying I got worried that I couldn't finish what I had to study.. But I just keep reminding myself not to be anxious.. Just give my anxiety to God. And I am really happy that He helped me to get thru yesterday.. I mean.. to finish studying what I had to.. wasn't the biggest miracle.. but to understand and not just read thru. (ha.. although by this time I have forgotten them again.. ;p) I am really thankful He's always there.. And I am also thankful for those who prayed for me for this paper.. If you are reading this.. Thanks!
I am really grateful to the family of God.. Supportive of each other.. What I really think is important. In the past, I don't commit myself so much to church. I felt that I can find God on my own.. It's a personal relationship. But come to think of it, it's really selfish. To have relationship with God means also to bless the body of Christ (family of God). It is to love who Jesus also loves. It is to be the hand of God to care for those who Jesus cares about. Even to quietly pray for them when they are brought to mind..
I am also really thankful for my mom. She never forget to mention everybody in her morning prayers. (hah.. sometimes I forget to mention some.. sometimes rushing out without praying for others.. oops..) Yah.. just to think of her bringing my name in her prayer to the Lord, I feel very blessed.. So I felt like dropping her an sms to express how I feel to her. I said "It need not be mother's day to say that I LOVE YOU mom!". I really feel that she is a great mom. Forgetting how she used to be when she was not a believer. When she was born again, I could really see how she was changed. Even before she was born again, she loved us so much although sometimes in a wrong approach. Now when she wants to teach us things, she will bring the word of God and she will speak in a gentle manner. I am really amazed at how Jesus changed her life and how she really begin to trust in the Lord by faith. I never imagined this day would come, when my mom becomes a believer. Cos she was actually against my baptism.. and she was from other religion.. and always telling me "all religion are the same.."Now she often say to her friends "Jesus is the only way". Yes, she actually testify more than I do.. Well, many are not supportive and sometimes mock her for her faith, but I thank God that she still hold on to her faith.
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Trima kasih Tuhan untuk segala-galanya
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dengan kasih sayang Engkau mendidikku
Engkau tunjukkan kepadaku jalan yang benar
yang membawaku kesisiMu
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andai kudapat terbang tinggi
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ku takkan seperti ini lagi
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untuk melihat kasihMu
walau ku masih dalam dunia ini
Bapa ku tahu
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great trip.. great trip back.. :)
Yea.. Just got back from indo.. My beloved country.. yet full of unrighteousness.. One day will I return there to contribute to the community that I was raised? Possible. Just before I got back, I was stopped at the custom check cos I've got a pile of notes. I dun really know why. The person just said what is that? Books? Hmm.. makes me wonder if they are not going to impose strict censorship rules again.. Anyways.. yea.. the custom officers asked me if I was a student. I said yea.. I am studyin in sg. One of them said "well I wish you all the best for your studies. Hope you'll have accomplishments. But make sure you come back here to contribute." Without hesitation I said "yes, for sure". I am quite sure that one day I will go back there to contribute to my community. But more than just that, I wanna serve the Lord there. I am not sure if I can do it. But if He wills, He will prepare me for it.
This trip I could see that it was indeed intended by God. From this trip I learnt quite a lot of things. From my mom, from my family, and from other people.. But mostly are from my mom. This morning, when I was talking to her, she was just like my mirror. Give me a reflection of who I really am. Well.. most of the time we do not look at ourselves.. do we? I need frank people, to tell me what I am really like. Of course in a constructive manner, not just critical. I am totally guilty of being the critical type. I think God spoke through my mom. Many many times I will refuse to listen. But this time round I told myself, if I truly gave myself to the Lord, I should listen with an open heart and really search my heart. She told me of my old habits that I still hold on to. Being critical that is. And being frank at the wrong time, wrong place, to the wrong situation. Yea.. totally guilty.
She also shared with me about some thoughts and I really learn a lot about humbling down. Humbling down is to be learnt. Without a circumstance when you are required to take down all your pride before someone, we can never learn truly what is humbling down. Just like what wh said.. If you are surrounded by nice people, you are never gonna learn what is love. (not saying that surrounded by people who are nice is not good..) Because love isn't about loving somebody who will love you back. It really isn't about loving someone who loves you first. Loving is about giving, serving, what can you offer.. I am always always so amazed by what God illustrate about love. He said love suffers long, is kind, does not envy, does not parade itself, not puffed up, does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, not provoked, thinks no evil, does not rejoice in iniquity but rejoices in truth, bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things, and it never fails!
And Jesus also said love your enemy. It is really something to pursue. And I am glad that God is always giving me a mirror, whether it is through my own reflection time, or through scriptures, through people.. If I only know the depths of my heart I think I will not stay in the same place but would want to pursue higher grounds. Just like Moses did. Higher and higher till we see more of the glory of God. Hmm.. so I think glory of God is really progressive.
Karen came to school prayer group last thursday and I was greatly blessed by the message she brought. I am awakened that I have to take care of the seed that God put in my heart. Even during exams. It's not a break from praising God and fellowshipping with Him. The illustration is of a pregnant lady, pregnant with the seed in her. She has to take care of that seed, so carefully. That she will not lose it. And when I heard that I've got an illustration in my mind. When a woman gets pregnant, she will feel the movement of her baby. The bigger the baby is growing, the more intense she can feel the movement and the burden. It is just like the seed for revival. The more it is near the due date for the birth of revival, the heavier is our burden to pray for revival. The greater we will see the sneak preview of the movement. I mean.. net shared about how she could see God moves in school. I am seeing that too.. I am really happy that God gave these sneak previews to encourage us that we're on the right track. The key for revival is very simple. God already said it. It is an open secret.
2 Chronicles 7:14 "if My people who are called by My name will
humble themselves, and
pray and seek My face, and
turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land." The key is not what programme we have for reaching out. The key is revival within us first. In this scripture.. It doesn't say anything concerning the unbelievers, does it? Revival start in us. Seek our heart. Search for any leaven left in the house. Cast it out. Be pure for God. Praise the Lord.
it is love
These two days have been remarkable for me. I am so stirred up to know the depths of the love of God. Well.. the love of God which is perfection is beyond our comprehension. If anyone claim to know this perfect love, I don't think he/sh really knows it. The heights and the depth of Jesus love is more than anything can potray. Well, I thought passion of Jesus Christ was a good potrayal of the suffering of Jesus Christ for humankind. But look at this. Sister Silvia Evans came to church and shared this. Jesus took a form of lowly man just to serve human kind.
Isa 53:2-52For He shall grow up before Him as a tender plant, And as a root out of dry ground. He has
no form or comeliness; And when we see Him, There is no beauty that we should desire Him. 3 He is
despised and rejected by men, A Man of sorrows and
acquainted with grief. And we hid, as it were, our faces from Him;
He was despised, and we did not esteem Him.
4 Surely He has
borne our griefs And carried our sorrows; Yet we esteemed
Him stricken, Smitten by God, and
afflicted. 5 But He was
wounded for our transgressions, He was
bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His stripes we are healed.
All these things He did it for us. 2000 years ago. Well.. many people don't believe what He did and blaspheme Him. He is rejected by the people He came to save. I am so touched by His love. His love even over my life. From the things He led me through. From the provision He gave to my family and my life. From the encouragement He gives me when I am stressed. The energy He suddenly gives me when I am deprived of sleep in this beautiful life in this campus.. The inspiration He gives me when I have no creative juice to write my essay. The forgiveness that He puts in my heart when somebody upsets me or annoys me. It is only through His love that I can enjoy all these and even to bring my worries and my needs to Him in prayers.
Heidi Baker came to my church to talk for saturday and sunday. She is a remarkable woman in faith in love with Jesus. She is just so in love she gave up everything to follow Jesus and to love the unlovely. She gave her life to the slums. Children who are orphans, not loved, dying.. She is doing 'what would Jesus do-WWJD'.
This I got from Iris ministries website blog.
From: Monica Miller
On a lighter note:
You know you’re in Pemba, Mozambique when…
1) You’re standing quietly in a crowd minding your own business and a baby on the back of the woman in front of you pees on your foot.
2) A monkey on a string bites you on the way to church.
3) You have to carry your Bible to the altar call, because someone might steal it.
4) Your skin lightens a whole shade after a shower.
5) When dressing up is considered wearing clothes that have only been worn once, and freshening up to go out consists of using a baby wipe.
6) You run around the back of the church during the altar call like a mad woman, because your scabies itch so badly.
7) You jump up and down for joy because you just got a light bulb in the bathroom.
8) Living with twelve girls in one room is considered ‘getting space’ (because you lived with 30 girls).
9) You are so moved by the Spirit you have to go jump into the ocean only to end up sitting on a rock crying as a strange fisherman picks a sea urchin out of your foot.
10) When the bathroom is a hole in the ground.
11) When goat for dinner sounds really good.
As you can tell, life here is as amusing as it is perplexing. We are happy, healthy and slightly dirty. More later. Love you all. Monica and Meredith.
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It's really about Jesus. About His love for the lost. For the children in the slums. The children in garbage dump. The poor, the sick. Both physically and spiritually.
Matthew 25:34-46
34 Then the King will say to those on His right hand, 'Come, you blessed of My Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world: 35 for I was hungry and you gave Me food; I was thirsty and you gave Me drink; I was a stranger and you took Me in; 36 I was naked and you clothed Me; I was sick and you visited Me; I was in prison and you came to Me.' 37 Then the righteous will answer Him, saying, 'Lord, when did we see You hungry and feed You, or thirsty and give You drink? 38 When did we see You a stranger and take You in, or naked and clothe You? 39 Or when did we see You sick, or in prison, and come to You?' 40 And the King will answer and say to them, 'Assuredly, I say to you, inasmuch as you did it to one of the least of these My brethren, you did it to Me.' 41 Then He will also say to those on the left hand, 'Depart from Me, you cursed, into the everlasting fire prepared for the devil and his angels: 42 for I was hungry and you gave Me no food; I was thirsty and you gave Me no drink; 43 I was a stranger and you did not take Me in, naked and you did not clothe Me, sick and in prison and you did not visit Me.' 44 Then they also will answer Him, saying, 'Lord, when did we see You hungry or thirsty or a stranger or naked or sick or in prison, and did not minister to You?' 45 Then He will answer them, saying, 'Assuredly, I say to you, inasmuch as you did not do it to one of the least of these, you did not do it to Me.' 46 And these will go away into everlasting punishment, but the righteous into eternal life."
John 14
1 "Let not your heart be troubled; you
believe in God, believe also in Me. 2 In My Father's house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to
prepare a place for you. 3 And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you to Myself; that where I am, there you may be also. 4 And where I go you know, and the way you know."
5 Thomas said to Him, "Lord, we do not know where You are going, and how can we know the way?" 6 Jesus said to him, "
I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me. 7 "If you had known Me, you would have known My Father also; and from now on you know Him and have seen Him."
8 Philip said to Him, "Lord, show us the Father, and it is sufficient for us." 9 Jesus said to him, "Have I been with you so long, and yet you have not known Me, Philip? He who has seen Me has seen the Father; so how can you say, 'Show us the Father'? 10 Do you not believe that I am in the Father, and the Father in Me? The words that I speak to you I do not speak on My own authority; but the Father who dwells in Me does the works. 11 Believe Me that I am in the Father and the Father in Me, or else believe Me for the sake of the works themselves.
12 "Most assuredly, I say to you,
he who believes in Me, the works that I do he will do also; and greater works than these he will do, because I go to My Father. 13 And
whatever you ask in My name, that I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. 14 If you ask anything in My name, I will do it.
15 "
If you love Me, keep My commandments. 16 And I will pray the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may abide with you forever-- 17 the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees Him nor knows Him; but you know Him, for He dwells with you and will be in you.
18
I will not leave you orphans; I will come to you. 19 "A little while longer and the world will see Me no more, but you will see Me. Because I live, you will live also. 20
At that day you will know that I am in My Father, and you in Me, and I in you.
21
He who has My commandments and keeps them, it is he who loves Me. And he who loves Me will be loved by My Father, and I will love him and manifest Myself to him." 22 Judas (not Iscariot) said to Him, "Lord, how is it that You will manifest Yourself to us, and not to the world?" 23 Jesus answered and said to him, "
If anyone loves Me, he will keep My word; and My Father will love him, and We will come to him and make Our home with him. 24 He who does not love Me does not keep My words; and the word which you hear is not Mine but the Father's who sent Me.
25 "These things I have spoken to you while being present with you. 26 But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all things that I said to you. 27 Peace I leave with you, My
peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
28 You have heard Me say to you, 'I am going away and coming back to you.' If you loved Me, you would rejoice because I said, 'I am going to the Father,' for My Father is greater than I. 29 And now I have told you before it comes, that when it does come to pass, you may believe. 30 I will no longer talk much with you, for the ruler of this world is coming, and he has nothing in Me. 31 But that the world may know that I love the Father, and as the Father gave Me commandment, so I do. Arise, let us go from here.
Look up.. not down
So I said: "Woe is me, for I am undone! Because I am a man of unclean lips, And I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips; For my eyes have seen the King, The Lord of hosts."
Isa 6:5"The heart is deceitful above all things, And desperately wicked; Who can know it?
Jer 17:9But we have renounced the hidden things of shame, not walking in craftiness nor handling the word of God deceitfully, but by manifestation of the truth commending ourselves to every man's conscience in the sight of God.
2 Cor 4: 2For it is the God who commanded light to shine out of darkness, who has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ. But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us. We are hard pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed-- always carrying about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body. For we who live are always delivered to death for Jesus' sake, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. So then death is working in us, but life in you. And since we have the same spirit of faith, according to what is written, "I believed and therefore I spoke,"* we also believe and therefore speak, knowing that He who raised up the Lord Jesus will also raise us up with Jesus, and will present us with you. For all things are for your sakes, that grace, having spread through the many, may cause thanksgiving to abound to the glory of God. Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.
2 Cor 4:6-18
study.. :)
Hee.. it's nearing exams already. I like exams preparation more than going to school. Haha. Cos exams is the period when all the stuff get drilled into my head.
Today after I came back from church, I slept from 330pm to 8pm. That's my "night sleep".. Haha.. Cos I find that I can study at dawn better than in the afternoon. So here I am.. still studying maths.. the subject that I lag behind by a lot.. ha.. But thank God. He's always good. I think without Him giving me grace to study I really dunno how to study. Yeah.. and His help is always there for everyone who wants to ask for help from Him. It's free. So.. I really can't understand sometimes why people reject His love and His help. He's really a wonderful God..
John 8:37-59
v43 "Why do you not undestand My speech? Because you are not able to listen to My word.
v47 "He who is of God hears God's words; therefore you do not hear, because you are not of God."
yes indeed a lot of people in the world do not understand the revelation of Jesus Christ. The revelation of Him as Son of God indeed come only from the Holy Spirit. But yet I pray that this place will be a good ground that hearts of the people will not be hardened anymore.. and the revelation shall come to the gentiles :)
So anyways, today aft Pst Yang's message there was a altar call. I went to the altar and asked God to show me deeper into His love and really to understand His mercies. Yah.. I was at the front row.. and Pst Yang laid hands on me. And the next moment I felt such understanding about His mercies to me and that .. I am actually conceived in His mind.. I found it really hard to understand and accept it in the past. I think all that was just head knowledge. But aft today's message I've got a refreshing revelation about it and faith for it. Yah.. I was conceived in His mind and that is why He cares for me and even is always willing to forgive my trespasses.
It was really miraculous. It's like one split second there it was the revelation and faith came to me.. Yah God is miraculous and good. He knew deep inside my heart what I actually needed in Him.. I wasn't even aware that the revelation was actually what I need to understand His mercies.
I subscribe to newsletter from beliefnet. And the daily message posted there are most of the time in line with the message preached in the church. It's amazing. What God is speaking to the people in beliefnet is the same as the message spoken to the speakers here. It is the same God! Yah.. friday's newsletter was about spiritual gifts. Which is the same as what Bishop Samuel Doctorian spoke about todaty. He is such a hilarious preacher. Really.. He's quite old already.. 87?? But wow.. when he talks it's really exciting. I still could remember what he spoke the last time he came to Singapore. About 2nd touch. And another speaker that I really can really remember what is spoken is Art Katz. When he spoke about sent word.
yah some word just spoke to my heart.. and those really are impactful!
